Chapter 148: Terrified

I'm afraid . I know it's kinda weird to start of my chapter with that phrase after going missing for quite sometime now but i promise you that it has nothing to do with bad stuff but as my eyes could see , this stuff is very terrifying for me . I know that i'm speaking in a twisty way well , the only reason i'm doing this is because i wouldn't like to be straight forward when i'm speaking about my fears . I'm terrified of being missing . I hate it when i wouldn't be able to ... Just skip it . I'm locked inside of my own heart and i'm dying to get out to see the light of freedom once more . I need the past . I hope the girl that is reading this , that has been wondering where i've been , that have been missing me will know that i'm referring to her . I need my past . I will not let it be blown away like the sands of the desert . I'm begging like a poor man wanting money in his pocket to support his love ones . I need what i want . I will not let my fears become phobias . I want my rights . I want ... Just give me another chance . I beg of you . Just one more .