chapter 24: So Confuse

Well, there's no time for hellos ..sorry .. i need to scream out loud ... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok that feels better ..
well not really .. i think so .. hmm ..
i have no idea if it's over or not ..
yesterday, when i chat with her, she told me to decide should our story ends there and of course i said no .. i couldn't even imgine a life without her .. I REALLY LOVE HER !! when i met her yesterday, i can't believe i'm saying this , i cried because she said we need to end it there .. So now you understand why i'm confuse .. when she boarded the bus, i can't afford to turn back and look because i will cry .. maybe i did when i don't look .. i cried because of i girl and that's a first time for me ..
ALL I WANT TO KNOW NOW IS THAT, IS IT OVER OR NOT ???
Please don't be over ..
She's just so sweet, loving and she always makes me smile .. You guys need to understand what she meant to me .. She's like my special someone .. and she's the first and only girl that i can't forget about .. Every kisses, every hugs, every smiles, every laughter and every moment we spent with each other are permenently stuck in me .. I LOVE HER SO MUCH !!! My heart is like beating faster and faster again .. So afraid of losing her .. She is a star that can't be faded away in my life .. l don't want it to be over .. i want it to go on .. i don't see the reason why we need to end it .. I LOVE HER !!!

Chapter 23: Burn The Bridge Is Back

Hello guys ! WOw, i'm so happy today .. hahas .. Well my stress is all gone and i'm back with the old cheerful me .. LIKE WOW ! Well today, i went to Shidiq house because i want to use comp .. just sitting and playing XBox .. Well i'm like now waiting for my girl to call me .. I hope i can see her today because i really miss her .. Aww .. i Like miss her so so much .. Hiyoo .. I can't use comp at home because i'm "grounded" for don't know how long .. my mum says i can't use the comp but i can go out .. LIKE half yay and half aww .. Ok ok ..

A message for my byy :

Byy, if next week want to meet, call me ..

i really want to see you ..

hiyoo ..

miss you so the much ..

Well just call me ok ?

and i hope today i can meet you ..

Till then ..

LOve You ..

Kisses And Hugs ..

And got one more news .. BURN THE BRIDGE IS BACK !! All the past are all settle and we are ready to create another chapter of our story .. Hope nothing like before will ever happen again .. We rock !! By the way, Sorry Guys ..

Chapter 22: I'm So F**king Stress !!

... Here's Esfan posting like again .. What a fucking day i had today ! I was so not in the fucking mood today ! Nothing ever go my way ! Except for one thing .. Around 12+ in the morning, i was sent to the hospital because for some reason .. The doctor says that i'm superrr stress because of a lot of things .. Well i agree .. I'm sooo fucking stress !! With what ?! EVERYTHING !! With this fucking life ! With the fucking school ! With the fucking studies ! ARGHH !!

What hell must i do ?!

Give up ?!

Let life take over me ?!

WHAT ?!

I'm lying in face down position and i can't stand back up .. What in the name of ***** must i do ?! ARGHHHH !! SO SO SO SO SO SO SO FUCKING STRESS !!

Today, i got into a fight with Has ..

He like ...

Nevermind just forget it ..

I threw a fucking chair at him ..

I was SO angry ..

I don't know if he knew that or not ..

But i want to say that i'm truely sorry ..

Anything, let me be cane, not him ..

SOrry ..

Chapter 21: Am I That Guy ?

Hello .. Is like Esfan posting here again .. Well today --- hmm .. I don't know if to put it a good day or not .. What the hell am i saying ?! It's an OK day .. Because, i meet my Byy .. I was soooo late .. and like so stupid of me .. ARGHH !!! SO SORRY ..

Then, we like hang out under a void deck somewhere near Khatib ..

LIKE OK ..

We just like hang out ..

Nothing special .. (I Think So)

Then, I sent her home .. And like we hugged a lot and i kissed her on her forehead .. TWICE !! No she doesn't dissapoint me but i surely has dissapoint her .. I forced her like too much and i'm like sorry .. SO SORRY for not being your "GREAT HUBBY". I'll try to be that guy .. That you always dreamt of .. So SOrry ..

LOVE MY BYY SO SO MUCH !!!

Chapter 20: I Quit !!!

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************************************* You Guys Just Ruins My LIfe*********************
***********Got Nothing Better To Do?!*************************************************
*****************************************************************Just Leave Me Alone!!
****If You Don't Like Me Just Say It .. Don't Need To Irritate Me***************************

I QUIT !!

**************************************Go Find Yourself A Better Vocalist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*****

****Get The Hell Out Of My LIfe !! *****************************************************

Go and ****! Go and ***!

I maybe TOO FUCKING NICE to you guys !

Just DON'T reach the limit !

Burn The Bridge Is Dead !

Chapter 19: An Uncomfortable Moment

Hi Esfan posting here again .. Can't sleep or rest .. Like what sia .. So weak and so tired .. Haiz .. What to do ? What to do ? Why ? Maybe i'm LIKE just worrying too much .. Maybe there's more ? I have no freaking idea why ..

BUT ..

It all change when my Byy chat with me .. LIKE WOW !! Haha .. But deep inside, i still have that uncomfortable feeling .. It's not that i don't trust her, it is just that i don't trust myself ..

"Am i a good BF ??"

That is the question i've been asking myself everyday, every hour, every minute, every second ..

That's the only question i ask myself ..

Every moment ..

BUT ..

My Byy have told me the answer ..

..

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..

..

..

..

..

She Says ..

I'm Ok ..

LIKE WOW !!

Just love my Byy so very much ..

Chapter 18: Last Minute Plan

Hi there, Esfan posting here again .. Today is Saturday and it's someone special birthday .. LIKE WOW !! By the way, Happy Birthday .. Well Saturday if staying at home feels LIKE so weird .. But luckly, Jesslyn and Wan made a last minute plan .. We went to Vivo City to watch 'Fast & Furious 4'. It was a breath-taking show ..

Also, i bought for my byy her birthday present ..

It's like nothing but i hope you love it ..

It is a ****** ..

I'll show you the picture and i'll give it to you on tuesday, when we meet ..

Today actually is a great day but two people that are special are missing .. Firstly, is Shidiq .. Without him, we are so boring .. And for the first time, it felt weird because there's no one to disturb me .. Hahaha !! And the last person that is missing is my byy .. It LIKE so boring without her by my side today .. But i totally understand why she can't make it .. I hope u enjoy your birthday byy .. I miss her so so so so much .. Haiz ..

Well that's all for today..

I'll continue tomorrow ..

Till then,

TATAZ !!

Chapter 17: Am I TOO Nice ?

Hi Esfan posting here ... AGAIN ..

Well the first half of the day isn't really that great ..

After school, we went jamming and i SUCKS !! (Like Always)

How could i forgot the melody and lyrics ?!

Arghh !!

Then i was disturbed by my band members ..

They say i stole Wan's girl ..

LIKE FUCK SIA !!!

M i TOO NICE until i was easily disturbed ?!

I'm WEAK !

But everything changes when i met Nunu ..

LIKE WOW !!

I waited for her for 16 mins but it was alright ..

My favourite part when i and Nunu went we had our privacy ..

We hugged, n she finally revealed her secret to me ..

i was shocked when i heard it ..

It almost make me into tears but because of her, my anger was gone ..

she's just so brave and strong that she could tell me her secret ..

I'm proud of her ..

i finally did what i wanted to do, kiss her on her forehead ..

We really had a great time there ..

that was the sweetest moment i ever had ..

I handed her the drawing and i hope she like it ..

i really love her ..

Well, that's all for today and i'll continue tommorow ..

Till then ..

TATAZ !!

Chapter 16: It's Not The Day Of My Life

Hi Esfan here posting again ..

Well today is my NAFA ..

And LIKE WHAT sia ..

It's not tiring but so the boring ..

Well, firstly we had our Sit And Reach and i won Wan ..

My score was 45 ..

Next, we had our pull ups and i managed to do 8 times ..

After that, we had our Shutter Run and my timing was 9.5 sec ..

My best ever ..

LIKE WOW !!!

Next, we had our Sit Ups, i managed to do 45 sit ups ..

i actually cn do more but lazy ..

Lastly, we went to do our Standing Broad Jump and i managed to jump 212cm ..

Haha ..

But still get less points ..

Well, today really miss my Byy lots ..

Miss her smile ,

Her giggle ,

Her eyes ,

Her Sweetness

AND ..

Everything about her ..

I just love her so much and hope she feel the same ..

Haha ..

Well, that's all for today ..

Tomorrow will surely be a great and tiring day ..

Just can't wait ..

Till then,

TATAZ !!!

Chapter 15: Am I?

Hi Esfan posting here again .. Well today i'm in a good mood .. And i don't know why .. Haha .. And that's LIKE weird .. Haha .. Well i think maybe it's because of yesterday special day .. Well i can't wait for this Friday .. I have a feeling that it will be one of my greatest day .. Well firstly, i'm gonna meet my band and go jamming with them .. its time to master 'A Favor House Atlantic' !! Can't wait for that .. Haha ..

Well, maybe after jamming, i'm gonna meet my girl .. and i forgot where .. haha .. dear where ah ? Hiyo .. haha .. sorry i suffer from STM ah .. haha ..

Well, i was wondering if anyone could answer any of this question, and i really need it ASAP.

The first question is; "Am i a great friend?" (for all)
Next; "Am i that good bro?" (for my bro)
Next; "Am i that irritating" (for all)
Lastly; "Am i a GOOD boyfriend" (for my byy)

Kk, i'm done for today, i'll maybe continue as soon as possible ..
Till then, TATAZ !!

P.S: I Love You Byy !!! Kisses and Hugs To You !!!

Chapter 14: Greatest Day Ever

Hello, Esfan posting here again. Well today, many interesting thing happened. Firstly, in school, before recess, we are so quiet. But after that, the noise began to grow. Laughter here and there. We had a lot of fun in class eventhough it was boring for the rest. Haha! Ok, that's weird.

After school, me, Jess, Shidiq and Wan ate ice longan in the canteen again. Very the nice. Haha! Of course nice, free! Jess blanja. Haha!

Next i went home for a while to get ready for ******. I know she'll understand. I met her at Khatib, WOW, i finally realise how far it was. But it was all worth it. I finally met her, i was super nervous. To tell you guys the truth, i melted when i saw her. She was so beautiful like a princess. She had a smile that was "WOW!!!". She's super sweet, cheerful and very very great. I held her hands feeling like i don't want to let her go. Every minute i spend time with her, my love for her grew. Every second i sat beside her, i finally know that i'm not alone. I gave her two kisses today and each of them meant: "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!". And she gave me also two kisses. Haha! I felt happy and great when she kissed me. That's LIKE WOW!. Haha. Well i hope i will meet her again soon. Haha!

Well that's all for today.

TATAZ!

P.S: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

Chapter 13: Love Story

13th April 2009,

My Love Story Began,

With "Her",

AND

I Hope It Will Never End ..

She's So Kind-Hearted, Sweet, Loving And Beautiful,

I Promise I Won't Hurt You,

I Promise I'll Hold Your Hands Forever ..

And Never Let You Go ..

I Love You !!!

Chapter 12: Finish Strong

Hi Esfan posting here. Today is the 13 of March. So it's not that far away. So, today i went to school feeling very very weird. Maybe i miss her for not being online the whole day yesterday. Haha. Or maybe i'm suffering from 'mood swing'. Haha! Wow! That is serious. But then, the second half of the day, i suddenly felt happy. Hahas! Ok, that's weird.

Well, but something very touching and meaningful happened today in school. During physics class, Miss Chan showed us a very great video about Nick Vujicic, a man with no legs and arms. He spoke in the video something very meaningful to me but also, maybe to all. I didn't cry in class but i cried secretly inside of me. But the video really helped me in a way, it tells me not to give up. Even if the situation seems impossible, it's not. If a man with no legs and no arms lies face down and able to stand up, why can't all of us fight the problems that may ruin our life. Maybe in one point in our life, we may fall and not able to stand up but we need to keep on trying, even if it takes 100 time to do it, we may fail but that doesn't mean that's the line to give up. There's always time to try again and again. But if you continue to fail, TRY AGAIN. Maybe, he's trying to say that nothing is impossible and we must not ever give up.

Well, i think that this chapter has thought at least one thing to all of you that's reading this chapter. I know it has thought me a lot of things. To check out this video, visit youtube.com and type: 'an amazing man are you going to finish strong' and click on the third result. Don't forget to cry. Hahas !!

OK that's all for today. I'll continue as soon as possible make sure i make i'll make the next chapter as better. Till then, TATAZ!!!

Chapter 11: LOLs!!!

Hi Esfan here posting for the 3rd time today. Hahas. Today is the greatest day of my life. I don't know why. maybe, it's about the 'Band Day Out' today. We have a lot of laughs. Especially when we disturbed each other. In the MRT to city hall we already started the laughs. My eyes were soaking with tears of laughter. Hahas!



Otw back, this happened:





















Gottcha!!! Haha!!! Sleepy!!! haha!!! Wan n my plan works...
Dont move!!! U're on candit camera!!!
HAhas !!!

Kk, i really gt a lot of laughs today ..
I'll continue again ok ..
Hahas !!

Till then
Tataz!!!

Chapter 10: An Angel

Hi Esfan posting here again. I know i've just post a few minutes ago, but there's something important i want to say. 30th March, the day that i'll never dare to forget. I knew an Angel. SHe's one of a kind. She's sweet, friendly, kind-hearted. She, positively, cannot be replaced by others. Eventhough she has stole my heart, i could never dare to love again. She is my best friend and if anything would happen to her, it'll be my fault. I promise to support her and protect her at all cause. She could never ever be replaced and she is truely an Angel.

Chapter 9: As Silence Goes

Hi there, Esfan posting here again. So sorry i didn't post yesterday. So the busy. Hahas! Well i didn't post yesterday so i'll tell you what happened. Yesterday, i went to S'pore Expo because there was some type of sale there. I was so the boring. I could die, why didn't i? Then to make everything even worst, my ex msg. She said that we need to go our seperate ways. Eventhough i couldn't afford to let her go, i have to. I forced myself to do so. It was so painful but i'll try my best to let her go. So Sorry!!!

Today, i play online games with her! I lost every game we played. Well she's my best friend and we have similar problems and we promise to support each other until the end. I hope she could be happier then me. She's sweet, friendly and so so loving. Meeting her felt like meeting an Angel. I wouldn't have met her if it wasn't for Wan. Thanks Wan! Later, i'll be out with the band for a "Band Day Out". Hope we have fun. Hahas!

Well maybe later I'll post again and I'll talk about the most interesting topic.

Till then,
TATAZ !!!

Esfan

Chapter 8: They're Coming

Hi there. Esfan posting again. Well today not much had happened. Me and my band just sat down at our school canteen and we make fun of an NCDCC boy. Haha! Erm2. Well that's only all for today.

But...

Should I???

Well, since that this is my blog, i'm gonna put all my problems down.

1)About my girl. Should I wait for her? I'll be risking a silent break if i would to wait for her if she didn't msg me but if would just let her go, i may lose the love of my life like forever...What the hell should i do?!

2)School. I'm so so so super stress about my schoolwork but all of that seems to lower sown because of my jamming session. Jamming helps me to forget about my problems for just a brief moment.

Well i think that's all of my problems i'm facing now. But i got a feeling that more will come and i'm just afraid that they are worst. Haish.

Chapter 7: A Favor House Atlantic

Harloo guys, Esfan here posting again. I had posted total of 7 chapters now. Wow! That's great. Haha! Well, today my school had its sports day. I ran 200m but i finished 3rd. What the--! I lost just a nose length. Sooooo Close! Haha!

Next, we went to Chinese Garden and go jamming. We played 'A Favor House Atlantic'. I don't know about me but the rest of my band members are super great. Shidiq was the best and his guitar solo was superb. Jess was great and the funny part is that when we were playing the last part, Jess's guitar then went silent. Wan was one of the best. He rocks! Haha! My voice changed throughout the session and it's like my throat hurts. Haha!

Well, that is all i have to say today. Of course i won't end it just like this. I'm going to end it by showing you guys our "Music Video". I'll continue the next chapter tomorrow.

Till then, TATAZ! Enjoy the video!!!

Chapter 6: The Day Before The Days

Hello again, Esfan here posting again. In just five chapters, many things had happen, no matter it's good or bad. Well today is the day before the big day. Well for me only. Haha! well tomorrow, my school is going to hold its sports day at clementi stadium from 8am to 11.30am. Tomorrow, i'm going to run for my class the 200m race. I have no confident that i'm going to win tomorrow because i'll be facing with super tough challengers like Marzuki, Jasri and Hasif. They have won me in the past and i think they are going to do it again. But 1 things for sure, i'm going to try my very best.



After our sports day tomorrow, me and my band are going to jamming at chinese garden. We're gonna play ' A Favor House Atlantic' and i'll try to give my band what they expected from me. Haha! Well, just in case you guys don't know who my band is, i'm going to tell just a bit. My band name is 'Burn The Bridge' and we are a metal rock band. Vocals is me, on drums is Ridhwan, on guitars is Shidiq and Jesslyn. Well my reason to join in this band is because i want to have fun and that is all. Our band leader we haven't decide yet but i'm gonna vote for Shidiq because he is the only one in the band who has the greatest talent and he's the one with all the ideas. The band name was his idea.



Well that's all is what going to happen tomorrow and now, i'm going to tell you what had happened today. Well so far, my girl still haven't message me. During school hours, nothing special really happened, like usual. After school, we don't have our supplementary and we decided to hang out again. Before we hang out, we waited for just to finish her Geography test. After that, Jess panicked when she realised that her wallet was missing. She ran all over the school to find her wallet but lady luck wasn't by her side. She gave up amd we went outside school. We ate cheese fries again and drank two tins of water and a bottle. Haha! Well this is what Shidiq did when we hung out:





Haha! Sorry Shidiq! The rest told me to do it! Haha! Treat this as a revenge for what you done just now when going back. Haha! Jess, Wan, happy? Haha! You guys are next. Better watch out for my 3.2 megapixel handphone! Haha! Well, on our way back, i was bitten by Shidiq and Safarin (Playing). We laughed like hell and we were like boys after finish drinking. Haha!

Alright guys, this is where my chapter ends and i'll continue tomorrow. Till then! TATAZ!

P.S: Sorry Shidiq!!!

Signing off,
Esfan

Chapter 5: Monday Blues

Hello again, Esfan here posting again. It's Monday again and you guys know what that means, school. Hmm... Where should i start? Well today, nothing much really happens. I just had a normal school day with nothing special happen. After remedial, me, Wan, Jess and Shidiq went to hang out under a void deck not far from school. We talked about band stuff and the most funniest part is when Shidiq sang out loud. He sang with the fullest expression. The rest of us laughed out loud.

I really can't wait for wednesday for jamming time. We'll jam of course right after our school official sports day. It's going to be tiring but it's the only day this week we can go jamming. 'A Favor House atlantic', here we come. Hahas !

Well if you all was wondering how my life had been, it hasn't been that wonderful lately. I today is the official one week mark when i didn't even speak, message or even see my own girlfriend. I miss her so so much. I understand why we didn't contact but i just fear that our relationship will be... Well, lets just skip that part. Well, i'm just going to wait for her maybe until my 'N's is over. If till then, she still haven't message me, i'll just take it that my relaionship was ended by a silent break. I couldn't afford to let her go just like that. Eventhough, she is so wild, i accepted her for what she is because my feelings for her can't be changed with just one snap.

Well, i think i'm going to end my chapter here and maybe i'll continue it tomorrow. Till then, Byes ...

~~~~~Esfan~~~~~

Chapter 4: No, Sun Day

Hi again! Here's Esfan posting again. Well today is Sunday and tommorow is Monday and it's school day. Hiyo! Lazy ah want to go to school. Later see all my teacher faces. Haha! Well today, i went to Geylang and went eat at...where ah?! Fuck! I forgot the name of the restraunt. Hahas! After that, we went home for a while.

Next, i went to a wedding. I stood there for long fucking hours! BORING SIA! Hahas! My Rain-dais just like that. I know it's short but i really had a long long day and a boring one. HAhas! Ok ok i'll end this chapter here and continue maybe tommorow.

Till then! TATAZ!

~~~~~ESFAN~~~~~

Chapter 3: Any Saturday

Hi there again. Today it's Saturday and i had done so many things in just one day. Firstly, i met wan and Jesslyn at lakeside mrt station to go to Shidiq's house for a band session there. Well i would like to say that Jesslyn and Wan did an excellent job. Jess could pick up the guitar for 'A Favor House Atlantic' in just two session.

Next, Wan can play the drum for the entire song. Hahas ! Can't wait for our jamming and i hope i don't cock up on my vocals. Hahas! Shidiq i don't need to say, he's tremendous. Hahas! We leave Shidiq's home around 4+ and me and Wan went to JP for a while. We walk here and there just to wait for the rain to stop.

After ther rain has stopped, i took 187 and went to the soccer field at Yuhua Primary to play soccer. I played firstly as a forward. When i went in, then the goals started to come in but i'm not the one who scored it. Hahas! Then i went to become the goal keeper. I only saved two to three shots but i also let one in. It was an unsaveble goal. So it's not my fault.

Well after that, it's just like any other normal Saturday. Well i'm going to end this Chapter here and i'll maybe continue the next chapter the next day. Till then, TATAZ!

~~~~~ESFAN~~~~~

Chapter 2: Third Of April

Today is lyke any other normal day in school. Nthing bad did happen and i think i didn't really even learn anything in school. Hahas! After sch, i went to cck to meet my cuz for a while. I went to Yew Tee and meet Faeza there. We talk here and there and exchange words about each other mataer. Hahas!

The best part of the day is that me n Faeza dpt mkn free! Hahas! We ate mac at Lot1. I ate Double Cheese Burger and drank Double Chocolate Frapee! Haha! Oishi!(btl tk???)
Its all quite fun and i can't wait for ltr at night when i mayb lepak with Safarin and the others. Can't wait to disturd him. Hahas!

Kk, my 2nd chapter will ends here. Maybe i'll continue it the day to come. Well pls read up what had happened and pls don't be offended by any entry that is yet to come. Till then,
TATAZ!

~~~~~ESFAN~~~~~

Chapter 1: My First Entry

Hi world, this is my first entry. I can't wait to start blogging and i can't wait to share with the world what had happened each day of my life.

Well for my first entry, i gonna tell you what happened today. Well today was like any other normal day. We had CME for the first two period and we got back our mock exam reasult for our social studies. Well, i got 9 out 50. Isn't that great? Haha!

The third period we have physics. Well we learned about electricity, voltage. It's an interesting topic and quiet an easy one. Haha. The rest of days were just normal except for the math supplementary lesson. I and wan did the excercise together and we did it very very very fast. Haha. I'm afraid that we do it too fast and we end having millions of careless mistakes. haha.

well i'll and it here and now. My story will continue the nxt day.
TATAZ !!!
~~~~~ESFAN~~~~~