Chapter 151: I Need A Wishing Well

Wake up ! The morning is fresh and you guys mustn't spend time in your stinky bed . Drop yourself out of the and begin your day . I slept really well today and later i'm going out to meet a certain someone and go window shopping with her . It's gonna be great and i hope she will enjoy herself later on . Well , i don't really have much to say today so i apologize . Just a quick update , it's only 11 more days .

Chapter 150: Led By The Faith Of Tme

Wow , it has been ages since i wrote something here . Well , not really ages but i guess you guys know what i mean . Life has been great thanks to a certain someone . Everything is back to the way it was but with one little problem . I can't enjoy it that much . Well , nothing last forever so you guys should know where i'm getting to . School ? Well , school is great . I'm hanging out with my new friends , not with the malay freaks who act to be SO MATURED ... But who gives a fuck , i'm happy with the position that i'm in right now . If you guys want to call me anything , just do it , you guys will look like idiots at the end of the day because i don't tolerate to such nonsense . So to bad .

Chapter 149: Normal Day

Wow , what a great day today in school . Well , i'm saying that because i made new friends that used to call me 'sombong' but after talking to them , they say that i'm actually okay . Happy ! Oh yeah , another reason is because today i had a lot of fun in school and there's not much thinking that is needed to be done today . So overall , today is a good day in school . After school , i went home straight with one of my new friend and the rest of my 'go home' friends . And the rest of the day is simply normal .

Chapter 148: Terrified

I'm afraid . I know it's kinda weird to start of my chapter with that phrase after going missing for quite sometime now but i promise you that it has nothing to do with bad stuff but as my eyes could see , this stuff is very terrifying for me . I know that i'm speaking in a twisty way well , the only reason i'm doing this is because i wouldn't like to be straight forward when i'm speaking about my fears . I'm terrified of being missing . I hate it when i wouldn't be able to ... Just skip it . I'm locked inside of my own heart and i'm dying to get out to see the light of freedom once more . I need the past . I hope the girl that is reading this , that has been wondering where i've been , that have been missing me will know that i'm referring to her . I need my past . I will not let it be blown away like the sands of the desert . I'm begging like a poor man wanting money in his pocket to support his love ones . I need what i want . I will not let my fears become phobias . I want my rights . I want ... Just give me another chance . I beg of you . Just one more .

Chapter 147: Singing The Deafening Lullaby

2o1o , it doesn't match . Nothing great happened this year so far . I know , it's too early to complain about this fucking stuff but nowadays , i'm getting angrier and angrier of a lot of things . But what's the fucking point of getting angry ? It won't change a single thing . I can just shut up and sit in one corner complaining about how life is fucking unfair but it won't do any good . Yeah , it's true life is unfair but what the fuck should we do ? Nothing but to be precise , we should just live life the way it is . Just go with the flow as i said . So what if people will say i'm different or anything . I'm not changing , it's just that i'm not being the way people want me to be . So this isn't my fault . I'll live my own life the way i want it because i control my own life . The rest are just guides to help or to tear me . I'm sorry if i've been hiding my feelings but that's the way i am and there's a secret behind my reason .

Chapter 146: Another Mile

Should i greet with a Happy New Year greeting or just start ? I think i'll just start . Well , you guys should know that it's 2o1o and another long year has been laid in front of us . Well , let unwrap this present and see what this year have planned for us . Had my first day of the year in Malaysia and we didn't really did much there . Just went shopping , visit my grand-grand and went to eat dinner with my cousin . I bought ps2 games yesterday also . Let me see , i bought Gundam Seed Destiny and Star Wars Battlefront II . My younger bro on the other hand bought Prince Of Persia: Two Thrones and Prince Of Persia: Warrior Within . It's kinda cool you see . Well , the next time in enter Malaysia , another two games will be in my hands .

Oh by the way , this message is for Jesslyn and Hidayah ; I'm sorry about yesterday night when we chatted . I was really moody yesterday and i needed a slow song to calm my mind . While i was at Malaysia , i was so worried about Hidayah and i started to get moody from then . Sorry .