Chapter 106: Inspired

I'm so damn tired and i am breeding eye bags . Can barely stay awake in class but Shidiq helped me to stay awake . We together united disturbed Jesslyn and had a lot of laughs . For the first time , Jesslyn was speechless when we disturbed her maybe because she is also so damn i tired . I need to agree because i myself have hardly enough energy to even open my eyes . I need to endure . By the way , i've been reading an interesting book called 'For One More Day' and it is really a great book . Full of sadness but mostly it's inspirational . I started to love this book even before i started reading it . Just looking at the title , i know that those four words have a great meaning behind it . To explain it shortly , this book is about giving another chance . I hope i'll learn something after reading this book .

Chapter 105: Locked Secrets

The only question in my mind is about myself . I have no freaking idea why am i this way . Maybe it's a part of life . I used to say to someone that life is ups and downs . I had my ups and i think this is my downs . But a great thing is that there's always people to cheer me up . I always have my friends and my girl . They are the only one that can carve a smile on my face but only one can carve the biggest smile . I think we all know who it is . Chapters by chapters is wrote but still i can't find out what's the purpose of my life . I want the best for everyone but i have no idea what's the best for myself . Life is full of mysteries and secrets . I myself need to unlock my own secrets to be a better person for all and promise not to be the opposite . There's still somethings i still don't know about myself so i'm sorry if i am a bit mysterious to some . I'll try my best to find the key about myself .

Chapter 104: Apart

Screaming from the top of my lungs but i still can't remove the feeling of anger . The hatred i am feeling right now is just ... I have no freaking idea how to describe it . I am falling apart into tiny bits of pieces that can't be seen with the naked eyes . I fires of hate is just burning . No , i'm not angry with everyone maybe someone maybe no-one , no no no , i'm just angry with myself ! I don't know why i'm angry with myself but i know that i am angry . I just feel like punching a wall until my hands are bleeding or maybe i feel like jumping down . I don't know what the fuck must i do . i need someone to hug me , to kiss me , to help me . I need my girl ...

Chapter 103: Realization

Do we realize that what we've done will lead us to our own extinction ? There is no more cure to heal our sick world because it is already too late . I don't know if you guys know that we are killing the world every second . Everyday , we are getting closer to the end and there's nothing we can do to stop it but we can delay it . You guys no need for me to tell you what you must do to delay it because you guys already know the answer . For some , it took these music videos to wake them up . We are the only ones who can save this world but we are also the ones who are destroying it .

Chapter 102: I'm 666

Fucked up . All i can think about is revenge and more sweet revenge . What a pleasure for me to see his head rolling on the ground and his throat slit . The redness in my eyes is just burning and all i want is to see him get the taste of the devil's flames . Let his future be cursed by hatred , pain , sorrow and everything that will make his life a living hell . Life will torture him a million times more and he will drown in his own tears . He thinks he controls people's life but what he doesn't know that i'm planning to control his . A fucking sinister plan will occur one day and his cries could be heard for miles . From the soils of the earth to the clouds of Heaven and the flames of Hell , his dying scream will be heard . I know some people know who i'm referring to and i wish he could read this because this is his future . I am known to make evil plans and i really mean evil plans . I don't give a fuck if he's a motherfucking gangster because he is still human like the rest . Even if it was the past , i will still look for you because the word respect isn't inside your dictionary so i need to put it into your head . One guy had mad me angry once is enough but it looks like there's another who wish to let me teach him a valuable lesson of respect . I may not plan to touch you but i really plan to attack from a distance so that you'll know what is the fucking meaning of respect . I'm thought i'm gonna let you off with a warning but after what i thought about yesterday , about what you told her while she's with me , remember you told her that you wanted to be her scandle . Remember that fucking phrase ?? That is why i hated you so so much . I just wish i could see your face break into half and i promise you that's possible . I just wish that you will read this post because i want you to know that there's a predator that is looking for you right now . Below is a video of how i wish it could happen to him . Listen to the lyrics carefully and you'll know what i mean . He is 555 while i'm 666 .

Chapter 101: Your Alarm

These videos are for all you motherfuckers out there . Let this be a wake up call for all of you guys who don't know what's waiting for you at the edge of your fucking lifes . Don't forget to jump the fuck up . I promise you guys this , you'll regret if you wish to die because death is louder then living .

Chapter 100: Crescent Full

It was said before , but we didn't listen . Breaking of dawn has come and the flare of our lifes will finally burn us all . Every tears and every blood that we faced before will all be forgotten . Diamonds will be meaningless to us as we face the final hours of our lifes .Wake up and listen to the cries of helpless infants . Answer their cries and stop the ending . Begin the begining and love life as what we want to see it . We're standing on the line of destruction and we are clueless of the fires of death that burns underneath us from the day that we cry out our first tears . We will forget everything that was said because we are fill with fears . The darkness of our eyes will open wide and the fires will burn it into ashes . We will die with regrets in our mind but we will live once more to see the mistakes we've made . We won't recognize our love ones and we won't care about others except for ourselves . The hate of all humans will lead them to their extinction . It's already too late and we need to be prepared to what is to come , because that's all we can do . We won't know the difference between a crescent and a full moon .

Chapter 99: Check It Out

Well, sorry but i can't show my Hari Raya pictures here . If you guys wanna check it out at my facebook . Some hilarious pictures there for all to see and please comment it . Check it out !

Chapter 98: Mixture

Not talking about the first day of raya because i'm gonna talk about it when i got our photos . Well, when i'm out of Singapore , i had this mixture feeling of excitement and sorrow . The sorrow feeling is that i missed everyone that i left in Singapore and all i had with me to remind me of the is a picture and some music . The excitement feeling is that when we reach there , i know that i was gonna play with some explosives but there's one small problem , i'll be reaching there in the afternoon . Explosives are suppose to be played when the moon is high up in the night sky . So we waited until we break fast and after we were done , we headed outside and began the war . There is this one explosive that is small but the power is like a grenade . We had 20 of them and we experiment it on everything we can find . When we're done , we took turns telling stories and around 11pm, we went to bed . I can't sleep because i miss a certain someone so much and that's my girl . I took the picture of us and i thought of so many things . I fell asleep with the picture in my hand . The last thing i remembered was her face .

Chapter 97: While I'm Gone

Gonna be missing from Singapore for awhile and i sure that i'm gonna miss everyone in Singapore eventhough i'll be gone not for long but i know the person i'm gonna miss the most is my girl . Met her today and it was an OK day . Had laughs of course . I'm gonna be gone from the horizon in the afternoon tommorow and i don't know if i am able to wish my friends Selamat Hari Raya . So sorry guys . To my girl, i love you and please remember the promises you've made . I trust you . I love you so much . Gonna miss you .

Chapter 96: I Can't Believe It

What the fuck is wrong with me ? What i have to say will be shocking that will shake the earth . Today is a great day in school . They start of the day, i played soccer during my PE lesson and we won . I can't score just now because i'm like playing out of my position but at least we have a great time . Then got three periods of Dnt and it's my free period because i drop my Dnt . The rest of the day is like normal because nothing special happened . Oh my , i can't believe i just said school is great . Only for today, maybe .

Chapter 95: I Love ...

I truely love you . You understand my problems that no-one else did . You know how to cheer me up when i'm feeling down and you carve a smile on my face when there's isn't one there . A lovely, caring and sweet girl is who you are and i hope you'll always be that girl . Remember when the first you kissed me, that was when i know that my love for you is real . We'll write our story together and hope that it won't end . I gonna remember every chapter that we will write and every moment that we will share . A smile is what i'll put on your face and your name is what i will carve on my heart . To my dearest; I Love You ..

Chapter 94: Wake Up Dummy

Open your eyes and see . It's never my fault because i know it never is . I lied to my soccer friends about the reason . The truth is inside of me and i won't let it out . I don't give a fuck what people gonna say to me in the future because this is the path of life that I've chosen . If they comment me, it means they don't even know who i really am . For now on, i am not gonna let anyone judge me because they are not in a position to judge me . I will only pick a certain someone to judge me . I'm sorry guys, but i guess i'm just TOO nice and i want to be a little strict so that no-one will take advantage of it ever again . A message to all you guys and me; WAKE UP !!!

Chapter 93: My Friends

Hiding in the shadows, i hide my true feelings . Being true true to yourself is easy but i see that being true to me it's not . Ignoring, that's all you can do . Maybe soon, it's remember . This is what i think but i don't about you . Maybe i can't know what the future is but it's all up to you . Just move on, that's what people say . Easier said than done . Action speaks louder than words but your's is screaming in my ears .

To my bestfriends, both Fee and Dayah, take care and good luck for your 'N' levels . Hope you guys pass and get a bright future . Remember , smile always !

To my close friends, Blind Bandit, Shidiq and Jesslyn , you jokers good luck in your 'N' level and i really hope you guys can enter 5N . Best luck in your future . I really hope i could join you guys next year and continue to joke with you guys . But once a Blind Bandit, always a Blind Bandit . You guys continue to irritate people without me . I know you guys can ace it . Take care guys !

Chapter 92: The Hunting

Who is the hunter and who is hunted ? I'm wondering in my mind right now . But i guess the answer is crystal clear . It's me , you're hunting me . Are you taking advantage of me ? Am i too nice until you need to test it ? But what i know is that i'll finish my 'N' level and i end this mess .

Chapter 91: Blood Boil

I don't know if it's true or not, the blood in my veins are boiling right now . I have no idea what to do . I should forget about it and pretend nothing had happened . What are you trying to tell me ? Everything you've told me had been lies ? I don't know what to say . This have stabbed me deep enough to feel the pain for a lifetime . If you want to push me away, just do it . You have already hurt me enough .

Chapter 90: Is The End

Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in silence and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
You knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?

Because that's all you can do now ..

What the hell !! I'm just bored and i'm not breaking up . Hahaha . Just bored !!

Chapter 89: The Future Isn't Writen On Stone

Giving up after what happened today ? I don't think so . It's not the end for what i know now and this is when i'll push my gear up to the maximum . I'm not gonna strive good but i'm gonna strive hard . Not showing any more mercy and i'll fight this war just to bring back peace . Gonna let go of certain things and get my head in the game . I have no confidence of going sec 5 but what i know that my future is what i make of it . It's isn't writen on stone .

Chapter 88: 3 Hours Of Sleep

I'm dying . Last night, i only had 3 hours of sleep . I can't sleep . i tried to close my eyes but it isn't putting me into my dream world . At school, i can barely stay awake after PE . Played floorball and i scored 2 goals today . Just one last thing, I'm so fucking tired !!

Chapter 87: Blood Of Hate

A sinister plan has occurred in my mind for quite sometime . A feeling of hate has been growing in me . It's like a poison to make me into a beast . It's gonna be something i can't control . How i hate it is gonna be the worst thing i ever hated in my life . It has crossed the line and all i'm waiting for is for time to fly . The faster time flies, the faster it will end and i'll be free of all the hatred but i know that the calm will not last forever . As one problem end , another will begin . The only question i had in my mind is, "Am i strong enough to fight it?". It is a battle i will fight alone and it's a battle i need to win . One thing for sure , one will fall and the other will rise .