Chapter 155: My Second Heartbeat

Hey guys . Wow , it's been like weeks since i've posted anything here . Really miss the typing and stuff . Well , firstly , updates on me . I'm now living a single life and finally , i've earn something i've lost for a long time , my freedom . Health ? Good , i think . Wealth ? Never have , never will . Life is really beating me down now and day by day , i kept on thinking that there's ain't gonna be any hope for me but my love ones are always there to reach out their hands and helped me out .

Firstly , Zul and gang , you guys rocks ! When i first enter ITE , i thought there won't be anyone that is ... so called 'like me' but when i met you guys , life suddenly began to shine . You guys have always been there to carve a smile on my face no matter if you guys noticed it or not . You guys are like my pillars that supports me in anyway possible and when the going gets tough , you guys will try to be even tougher and overcome the situation together . One thing i learn being with all you is that we are never alone . Even if we are the most emo person in this entire planet , we will never be alone . We joke together and always be together not only in this life , hopefully in the afterlife . You guys are the reason why i'm still here .

To Mady , stop worrying about what people think of you . You are the greatest friend anyone could ask for . If i pray very hard to get the greatest friend , god will surely send you . You have that cunning spirit of love and no-one can ever beat you in that . I never blame you for being a busy body in my life but i'm actually glad that you are part of my life . Like the rest , you helped me when things get hard for me and always end every conversation with a smile . You need to be happy always , eventhough the days may seem dark . Don't care what strangers think of you , we know you better .

To Aishah , you really have been a great friend to me . You are a sweet , loving , kind , caring , funny and beautiful girl . Any guys that were to have you will be call lucky . Your type of girl is like one in a million . When i think of you , i would suddenly be happy and i feel like hugging you tightly , not wanting to let go . I treasure our status because you have always been there for me (when you are not busy or asleep) . You never fail to also carve a smile on my face . Hearing your voice before i sleep will be the greatest gift of the day . At least if i never wake up the next day , i will die in peace . Your voice is just like a sweet melody that rings in my ears permanently . We made our promises and we are gonna keep it .

To My Dearest Bestie , Fee , I miss you so damn much . I really just wish you are here right now by my side helping me with my life . Among all of my friends above , you are the greatest because you know me very very well and you are the only person that can cheer me up when i'm having my deepest and darkest problems . We have been besties for almost 7 months and i know that the numbers will keep on increasing . You have always been there for me eventhough we didn't really talk to each other that much . I really want to meet you her hear your voice but time hasn't permit us . When the time comes , we will surely meet . Of all the people above , you are my loudest second heartbeat . There will always be a space reserve for in my my heart bestie . Always ...

Lastly , to Blind Bandit . Jamming this Saturday . Let's rock guys . You guys are love always .

The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It's a very mean and nasty place... and It don´t care how tough you are, it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently, if you let it. You, me or nobody, is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit... It's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward... how much you can take, and keep moving forward