Chapter 114: A Fucking Lie Of Forgiveness

I didn't forgive him . Even if the words of forgiving ran out of my lips , i had my fingers crossed all the way . I just say that i'm giving him another chance is just because that is what my girls would want to hear me say . To summarize everything , i lied . So ? I don't give a fuck . I am so damn disappointed . I am doing what is right . Even my friend that heard about this problem agreed that he is so damn guilty . I am disappointed with my girl the most . She would listen to the guy but not me . She never listened to me . If i forced her , all she will do is complain . Fuck this shit . How am i suppose to trust her if she don't even trust me ? Fairness is what she want but is she giving me my fairness ? Trust , the word which i said is the true meaning of love but we are lack with trust . She got angry with me when i didn't give the guy another chance but she reacted differently when i told her that the guy use a fucking vulgar word about my own mother . What the fuck is this . Fuck that 20 years old piece of shit . I will never give him another chance and i never want this situation to end how they think it has end . This fucking war is still on and i will make sure i'll gain victory .

The only think i can't believe is that my girl fell for a typical malay guy's lies . How silly is she ? What i know is i fell in love with a perfect girl not with a girl that does not even defend her own guy . All the fucking laughter and happiness you guys heard back then was a fucking lie and trust me , i'm good at lying . There is no more of those in me . All i have is a fucking beast inside of me waiting for the moment to devour the fucking idiot's flesh . I don't give a fuck . There won't be an Angel in me anymore . You have tested my patients and you have crosses the fucking line . All the kisses and love i gave you yesterday after i read that fucking message was a lie . It is so hard for me to change my feelings and it only takes tons of pain to trigger the bomb .

She said it's isn't fair because i could make friends with girls but she cannot make friends with guys . That's not true . My friends just talk to me respecting our relationship with my girl but her so-called "friend" have no fucking respect with our relationship . "Sayang" ? How long have you guys known each other ? It's only for one day . He is flirting and she just don't see that . Now i'm beginning to wonder who is the blind one around here . Don't blame me if i call Jesslyn "sayang" because i call almost everyone "sayang" .

Fuck ! I can't stop thinking about when we are in the movies . When the guy message her that he wants to break my face , she acted as if she got a normal message from her other friends . She didn't even act . Fuck this shit ! She don't even care about me . I won't forgive him and i never will and there is nothing anyone can do to make me change my mind . I'm gonna live this life with lies and i don't give a fuck . For the people who know me for a long time now , i never before got this angry and this is the first time . Believe me when i say this situation made me angry more then the situation when Shidiq and the others blame me for stealing Nunu from Wan because this fucking situation involve my girl . I didn't forgive him . I didn't give him a 4th chance . I don't give a fuck about his age . I will make sure his head will meet his own ass soon enough .

I Don't Give A Fuck !

I Won't Give Him Another Chance !

I Won't Forgive Him !

Fuck This Shit !