Chapter 70: I Want It All To End Quickly

Hello there .. What a tiring day .. Just want to jump on my bed and be dead .. I'm so tired .. School is ok .. Boring of course and stressful .. My level of stressness has already increase .. Insane level of education i am studying now .. Just wishing i could throw my books away .. So the stress .. Well, just need to study until i burst my brains and just live with the days to come .. Like one of my friend said, "It might be worth it .." .. I just hope that she's right .. If she can live through it, why couldn't i .. My future depands on this .. I need to do it ..

Chapter 69: How Emotions Goes

Hey .. Sorry for no updates .. Lazy to put down .. Haha .. Well, how am i ? Well doing ok .. Haha .. Conflict here and there .. But when i got a good night sleep, everything is alright .. Haha .. Well, today had Malay oral and i don't know how i did .. Badly, i think .. Haha .. Well, only got lucks from my friends .. Haha .. And while waiting, we laughed all the way ... Haha .. Even the teachers gave us millions of warnings but we still laugh ..

Second thing today, when i went home, i saw my ex .. She ran away when she saw me .. Well she should .. Guilty bustard !! Well, its no use to be angry because Nissa is all i have in my heart ..

Love You Dear !!

But there's a problem that i tried to solve it for a long time but i just can't .. It just appeared everywhere .. I even write the name my compo and always appears in my dreams .. So confuse !

Chapter 68: Peace Isn't Forever

"She pulls you back on the verge of destruction..." Those are the words from the song 'Her Portrait In Black' and i'll always remember it .. Those words have meanings if you understand it .. Try and figure out yourself .. Haha ..

Well, today school was ok .. It feels short and that's because we have early dismissal .. 1 hour early if i'm not wrong .. One shocking thing happened in school .. Farah didn't know that me and Jesslyn are totally into metal .. C'mon Farah , that has gone for months .. Haha .. Sad of her .. Haha ..

After school, went to Shidiq house and have session there .. I learned something about bass and i'm learning to be better .. Can't wait to go jamming .. Haha .. Well metal rules !

Chapter 67: Humans Don't Deserve This World

Ouch ! That gotta hurt him .. Haha .. Sorry dude .. We gotta do that .. Haha .. Well happy 2 months to us .. Haha .. Longest this year man .. So damn happy .. Haha .. Well school SUCKS !! Mock exam is here and i totally hate the way the school set up the timing .. Boo !! But luckily tomorrow is our last paper .. Humanities here i come ..

Chapter 66: Half Of Mine And Half Of Yours

What the hell !! I'm awake !! I was planning to wake up at 12 noon but yet i'm sitting in front of the computer now .. Well, since i'm here, i'll talk about what happened yesterday .. Yesterday went to meet Nissa at Jurong East MRT at 2 but i was around 18 minutes late .. Ish .. i'm super bad .. The reason is that i was asleep .. Haha .. Sorry hunny .. We first went to Mount Faber .. It was a superb view from up there .. Haha .. If i'm not wrong, there was one moment when there were no noise except for the sweet music nature made .. All that was in my mind during that short moment was peace .. Then, we went to Vivo, eh, no we went to Habourfront centre first to eat .. I was starving to death .. We ate at Mac and i treated Nissa .. Haha .. The total price was $10+ but i only have to pay $6 .. The good thing about family ..Haha .. Nissa wanted to pay me back but i said no .. And that's a strict no .. Haha .. After eating, we went to Vivo rooftop .. There was one moment when a lady wanted to take picture and she fell in front of us .. The way she fall was so damn funny .. After she left, i started to burst in laughter .. We left Vivo around 6+pm and went to Lot 1 .. She returned eight library books .. Then went to sweet talk and buy drinks .. Went to meet my parents and they sent Nissa home .. Love You Nissa !!

After that went to Marine Parade and eat Ayam Penyet .. Yummy !! Haha .. I ate wing penyet and rice .. Haha .. I drank 3 cups of water because i was so thirsty .. Then went to east Coast Park and i slept there .. So sleepy .. We went home early in the morning ..

Chapter 65: Walking One Last Mile

Well, what a tiring journey so far .. Haha .. No i'm just tired because i played soccer yesterday .. How was i ? I have no idea .. Haha .. Today, i can't play soccer because i'm meeting Nissa .. So long i didn't meet her .. I miss her ah .. Hahaha .. Well i'm just walking one last mile to achieve my goal .. I need to try hard to strive for it .. I got a feeling that i will never make it to sec 5 because studies has been like taking over my life .. I'm like stress but i always got my trusty metal song to calm my stress down .. Well i have another love now, and that is mteal !!

Chapter 64: The Past Must Be Handle Now

What the fuck ! I'm gonna find that guy and break his face . How could you do to a girl like that ? You have no fucking respect for her . What if people ask that to your mother, do you like that ? Stupid fucking asshole . You better kneel down and apologize . If not, i'll pull your tongue out and strangle you . C'mon man .. I'm a guy who loves metal . You really wanna do what i say . Anymore complains, you better be ready to pay your hospital bills .

Chapter 63: Short And Sour

Hello .. Esfan here posting again .. School is ok today .. Like usual, nothing special happen today .. Stayed back for remidials today .. Went home and check out Divine Suiside Of K. music video .. Haha .. The music video is so damn cool .. That is what i call Divine !!

Chapter 62: School Is Hell

Hey there .. Esfan here posting once more .. Under every circumstances, life has been just ok .. There have been ups and downs, like usual .. Well school problems are my DNT .. I need to redo my artifact .. Wah .. I'm so damn cursing my DNT .. Well today i'm just like super stress because i have no god damn idea of what to do with my DNt and i like have four more days .. It feels like the world's end .. One more thing is that i had my English oral today .. I think i did badly because i was like too quiet .. C'mon Esfan, get your head in the game .. I need to work super duper freaking hard for my N's .. I can't even imagine how i will survive when i'm taking my O's .. Well i think i'll move step by step .. Achieving my goals is what i'll do .. There are two paths in front of me for me to walk on and for me to choose .. Which freaking way must i move ?? This is a choice i need to choose wisely .. For the present or the future ?? I need to choose a side and pick my own Destiny .. I'm holding a rifle and i don't know who to shoot at .. There are two targets but i can't see them clearly .. But i know that one day, i have to pull that trigger ..

Chapter 61: Feel Like It

Hello, Esfan here posting again. Well today is an ok day in school. The fun part is during PE. We played floorball and that's like my favourite game. I scored 4 goals but i couldn't do it without my friends. Wan was great when he defend the goal and Shalan was the most helpful. Of course there are mistakes but they are the one who helped us do better. Shidiq was also great as he defend and help us go forward. They rest of the day is just ok. Nothing special happened.

Well that is really all for today. Continue soon. Till then, Tataz !!

Chapter 60: Updates

Hello there. Esfan here posting again. If you have noticed that i have not post for quite sometime now. Well sorry because i've been busy lately. Ok now my updates. Firstly, me and Nissa is still going strong. Entering 2 months now and i can't wait.

Well, next is that the band is still great and i'm learning to play bass as we speak. Really need to buck up man. I'll learn the song called 'Smoke On Water' because i'm a newbie. I'll also will be learning Atreyu's songs and try to make my own bass tabs for our original. Jesslyn will be bringing her friend for a tryout to become our vocalist.

Well, life is OK for me. Of course there's ups and downs but that's the way life is. Well, maybe it's time for me to set up my goal so i can work hard and achieve it. I made a promise that i'll try my best to achieve what i want.

Well, that's enough for one day. Continue another time. Maybe sooner or later. Till then, Tataz !!

Chapter 59: Normal ?

Hey ..

Today is just a normal day in school ..

Ms Lee didn't turn up ..

A lot of free periods today ..

After school hang out with Jesslyn and Shidiq ..

Talk and laugh ..

That's all for today ..

Didn't talk to Nissa the whole day ..

Wonder how she is ..

I miss her a lot ..

Well, continue next time ..

Till then,

Tataz !!