Chapter 43: Choose My Way

Hello ..

Esfan here ..

Well today is Saturday ..

Like usual, i played soccer but this time i played as a defender ..

I perform damn badly today ..

Hiyoo ..

Maybe i'm out of my position ..

In the end we lost ..

The score i couldn't remember ..

Went home and message Nissa until 12am ..

Long sia ..

Haha .. 

But it was worth it ..

Love her very very much ..

Couldn't imagine a life without her ..

Got a message from Shidiq ..

He asked me if i want to play drums or not ..

I said yes but that is only if Wan don't want to continue anymore ..

I would like giving up my vocals and try a new thing ..

I don't mind ..

Anything for the band ..

Well, i think i end it here ..

Continue next time ..

Till then  , Tataz !!

And Happy Holidays !!

Chapter 42: Police And Murderer

Hello ..

So weak today ..

Early in the morning got small already not feelling well ..

But still i go to school ..

Why did i do that ??

I started to feel very very weak when we went for a talk in the hall ..

Felt like vomitting through out the day ..

But before that, i was feelling well  and in class, we played police and murderer ..

Funny sia ..

Many was tricked by me especially Atika ..

Trying to trick the police so understand ah ..

Slept in class and hoping when i woke up, i would feel better but no ..

Its getting worst ..

I walked back home like a drunk man ..

Spelt like a baby and when i woke up, i went to eat ..

I vommitted then ..

LIKE EEEEE !!

Well i think i end it here ..

Here's a video of Shidiq playing guitar and a fan sign by Nissa ..

Enjoy .. 

Tataz !!

Chapter 41: The Coming Flood

=)

Ok that's weird ..

Well today is just an OK day ..

A lot of free periods ..

Haha ..

Firstly, Maths, Miss Wong went for sec 2 camp i think ..

So no math ..

The MT ..

My malay teacher didn't enter my class ..

So that's a total of four free periods ..

After school, i had my english oral ..

It's super duper easy seh ..

Haha ..

Ok Esfan, don't too confident ..

My favourite part is the reading aloud and the conversation ..

I totally hate the picture discription part ..

Got no idea how to discribe ..

Haha ..

Hope i ace it ..

The last thing is about the band ..

Can't wait for jamming tomorrow ..

I'm going all out on my vocals ..

I'm in progress of learning screamo ..

So i'll try to ace it ..

Just hope got soar throat not that bad ..

Haha ..

Ok i think i'll end it here ..

Love Nissa a lot !!

Continue next time ..

Love you readers ..

Till then, 

Tataz !!

Here's the picture that i edited SPECIAL ..

Chapter 40: Laugh Laugh Laugh

Hi there ..

Esfan posting here again ..

So far, life is SUPERB !!

And so far, laughs have been taking over me ..

Firstly, my friends ..

Yesterday when we were at Pasir Ris Park , we make fun of Safarin ..

He says many things wrongly and we make fun of him ..

Yeah i know it's bad but it's fun ..

We played card games and we sure have a lot of laughs when playing it ..

Haha ..

But i need to say sorry to my Nissa because she don't want me to play that game ..

Sorry dear ..

Then on the way back, we laugh all the way from Bedok and we didn't stop when we reached Jurong East ..

We played Black Jack inside the train and Zainul really made us laughed ..

Next, the past few days talking to Nissa on the phone ..

And we also laughed ..

Yesterday night, she was disturbed by me a lot of times ..

Haha ..

Sorry ..

She's a great person to talk to ..

Well until here i'll end ..

Post another time ..

Till then Tataz ..

And here's some pictures from yesterday ..

Do enjoy ..

Chapter 39: Her And Only Her

Hi ..

Esfan here posting again ..

Well a lot of things had happened this past few days including today ..

But i'm only gonna tell you what happened today and yesterday ..

Yesterday, me and Wan went to ride our bikes and ride around Jurong area and Boon Lay ..

Haha ..

We're just boys wasting time ..

Haha ..

After that went to meet Safarin, Rizwan, Amy and Zainul ..

Yesterday just hang around making jokes and stuff ..

And at that moment, i confessed to Nissa about what i really feel about her ..

So damn scared seh ..

But later, we are both lovers ..

I Love Her So Much !!

And I promise not to hurt her ..

First we're strangest ..

Then we're friends ..

And we became close friends ..

And now we're lovers ..

Today got back all my MYE papers and ..

DAMN !!

I fail almost all except for Science ..

The rest i nearly pass ..

Shit !!

How could i have done so so badly ??

After the holidays, i'm going all out on my studies ..

Never gonna rest and i'll aim A1 for all my subjects except for malay ..

Haha ..

That subject no hope ..

 

Well gonna continue another time ..

Till here i'll write ..

Till next time,

Tataz !!

Chapter 38: A Silent Smile

Hello guys ..

Esfan here posting again ..

Well today is my last day of my exam ..

Happy !!

I just had my math paper and it is 60/40 hard ..

Maybe should have revised more ..

Haha !!

Thanks to the good luck wishes from my friends, I think i can do it ..

Thanks guys !!

Well this past few days have been chatting and messaging with Nissa ..

Haha ..

Well she's now officially my close friend ..

Actually, what i feel about her is more but i thought twice ..

I don't want to repeat the past ..

Maybe, we should remain as close friends and nothing more ..

Well she is one funny girl that never fails to put a smile on my face ..

When we contact, we will have a lot of laughs ..

Haha ..

Well, i think i end it here ..

I'll continue next time aites ..

Till then Tataz !!

Chapter 37: Start Of A New Life

Hello guys ..

Esfan here posting again ..

Sorry i didn't post for some time now ..

Very very busy with exams and "problems" ..

Well things are doing great so far except for one or two things ..

Firstly, i'm gonna talk about our music .. 

Shidiq created two great music for us ..

They're called 'Blind Bandit' and 'A Cinderella Story' ..

I heard them and they are superb ..

The drums aren't that bad ..

And i'm sure Wan can do it ..

C'mon man ..

Don't give up ..

Barani also want to join and luckily we have a spot for him ..

This is gonna be one of the greatest band ..

BUT ..

We need to work fast ..

Youth Day isn't that long and we're gonna finish those songs ..

Shidiq said we're gonna make another song about anger i think ..

Haha ..

Cool down bro ..

Next, i'm gonna talk about what happened yesterday ..

Yesterday is saturday and like usual i went to play soccer ..

For the first time we won ..

Yay !!

The final score was 7-1 , i think ..

i was the keeper after our opponent scored their goal ..

I admit i was clumsy for most of the time but luck was by my side ..

I made some good saves and i never let in any goals ..

Wow ..

I was lucky ..

Went home around 7+ pm and went to my cousin house to watch Man U v.s Arsenal ..

I score was 0-0 but Man U is the champion ..

Good for them .. 

Haha ..

The last thing is that i'm currently chatting with Nissa ..

Well we're just friends that love music, photography and some other stuff ..

She's really friendly and she sure smile a lot ..

Haha ..

Well June holidays going out with her to take pictures ..

It's our hobby so don't get the wrong idea ..

And i introduced to her 'Blindfolds Aside' by Protest The Hero ..

And she really love it ..

Alright , so i'll end it here ..

I'll continue as soon as i'm free ..

Till then, Tataz ..

Chapter 36: 13o5o9

Hello Esfan posting here yet again ..

Well, it's 13o5o9 ..

This six numbers are very special ..

Well today is 13o5o9 and a lot of things happen ..

 

Firstly, around 12+ am , i got into a conference with Rizwan, Zainul, Nana and Hariza ..

Waiting for them to call, i can hardly open my eyes ..

Haha ..

When they call, suddenly so so active ..

Haha ..

Zainul ah make us LOL ..

He so so funny ..

Haha ..

Laugh until almost die sia ..

Haha ..

Around that time, i finally got a GF ..

And that is ******* ..

Haha ..

She is so CUTE, Kind-Hearted and ..

I'm in love with her because she only be herself ..

Today i do my English and Physics Exam ..

English SUPER DUPER hard !!

Physics ok ..

Hope I pass ..

After school .. 

Went to meet my GF ..

N then went to TG n lepak with Nana and Zainul ..

ok have a great time ..

Haha ..

Well i'll talk till here ..

Continue soon ..

Tataz ..

Chapter 35: Sleeping With Numbers

Hello world !!

Esfan posting here ..

Why am i so happy seh ?

Don't know, don't care ..

Haha ..

Well today ..

I had math paper 1 exam ..

60/40 % easy ah ..

Of course got some blanks ..

Haha ..

Tried to keep myself awake but cannot seh ..

As soon as Mr Su go out ,

SAP !! I go to sleep ..

Haha ..

Tried ah !!

Finish school 10.25 and go eat at canteen first ..

HUNGRY !!

Haha ..

Eat what ?

KPO !!

After eating, waited for Barani for like 30 mins+ ..

So late !!

The funny thing is that he called me one stop before reaching ..

But 15 mins later, he then reach ..

The bus move like snail sia ..

SUPER SLOW !!

After that, went to Shidiq void deck and hear to the melody of 'Blind Bandit' ..

We did a lot of thing ..

Jess and Barani went home first but i stayed to join Shidiq and his friends ..

We played soccer n a lot ah ..

Cannot remember ..

Reach home around 4.45pm ..

Later night go out and hang out with Jaja and my friends ..

Can't wait ah ..

Haha ..

Should i tell her today ??

Maybe not ..

Need to wait for the right time ..

I'm not gonna repeat the mistakes i made in the past ..

Maybe gonna find ghost again ..

Haha ..

Can she take it ??

I think she can ..

Haha ..

Ok ok ..

I'll end it here and now ..

Gonna continue tomorrow ..

Yay !!

Tomorrow physics paper ..

Hope i rock it ..

For my friends ..

GOOD LUCK !!

Ok ok ..

Post tomorrow ..

Till then ..

Tataz !! 

Chapter 34: Thanks Guys

Hi ..

Esfan posting here again ..

Well today is holiday and got nothing to do ..

Until got a message from Nana ..

She told me to lepak with her and Jaja ..

I agree ..

Of course need to ..

Haha ..

They are so so sweet seh ..

They bought for me drinks and food seh eventhough i told them not to ..

Haha ..

Then Jaja called Grace to join us ..

Like what !!

Haha ..

But it end up good ..

Of course got a lot of LOLs ..

 We played PSP and me and Grace disturbed Jaja while she was playing ..

Haha ..

It was a great day of course ..

Returned home late ..

And continued playing PS2 ..

They rest of the day it was ok ..

Haha ..

Well i'll continue another time ..

Till then, Tataz !!

Chapter 33: Can't Move On

Hello ..

Esfan posting here again ..

Well today is Mother's Day ..

Hope you guys got something special for your mum ..

Haha !!

Well today, go eat Swensens at IMM and i live half-way to meet Jaja ..

It was great meeting her but i felt like going out with my past ..

The truth is, i'm still in love with Nunu ..

I just can't erase the memories away ..

It's like impossible to do it ..

I miss her so so much and i can't stop dreaming about her ..

Well i know she love another and i'm not in the position to stop her ..

Sometimes, to make things right, we need to sacrifice the things we love the most ..

Even our dreams ..

But i just can't do it ..

Is it i don't know what i right or ..

Is not letting her go is the right thing to do ??

Even if i love another, it won't be the same ..

Chapter 32: Who ?

Hello .. 

Esfan posting here again ..

Today, went to Geylang for breakfast ..

We left house at 11+ ..

It's like so hot and there's no wind ..

I was sweating like a wet dog ..

Haha ..

Went home ard 3+ and then go back out to play soccer ..

We played and i started as the keeper ..

The opponent scored first and it a shocking goal ..

It's not expected ..

We then equalise and go score another goal ..

The score was 2-1 ..

Then, they equalise ..

2-2 was the score ..

Next, we scored another and they scored ..

We go on full attack and we scored 1 more goal ..

They managed to equalise ..

And they score the final goal ..

The final score was 4-5 ..

So close !!

Ok ok ..

Post another time ..

Till then ,

Tataz !!

Chapter 31: Enjoying Or Not ?

Hi ..

Esfan posting here again ..

Well today so tiring sia ..

Session was cancelled because Shidiq need to go out ..

With who? (Still Unknown)

Then, our last minute plan ..

We follow Shalan go Bugis to buy a bag then go Penin because he want to buy a pair of hockey Shin PAd ..

When we were there, i slowly started to forget about the past but two things made me unable to forget ..

Firstly, i heard a song that SHE used to love ..

I covered my ears tightly making sure i couldn't hear that music ..

And lastly, I saw HER bag that SHE has while walking at Penin ..

I looked away as soon as possible ..

Can't afford to remember her ..

Sorry ..

Here are some photos we took ..

Enjoy ..

=)

Chapter 30: The Sound Of Howling Wolves

What A Day I had ..

No, i got mood ..

Happy mood !!

Haha ..

OK ok im nuts ..

haha ..

Yesterday , went to lepak with Safarin, IWan n myy ..

HAha ..

Go And Find Ghost 

haha ..

i saw it !!

Kakak Aku ..

Haha ..

She was looking at me ..

So Scary !!

Took Videos Again But in progress of editing ..

haha ..

Tonight go again ..

Still want to find out the truth ..

haha ..

Well not gonna talk much ..

Tommorow write again ..

Haha ..

Chapter 29: What Mood Is This ??

Harloo !!

Esfan posting here again ..

Well today i half half good mood and half half no mood ..

Wow !!

That's strange ..

Haha ..

Well, i got no mood because of ****************************************** ..

Haha ..

Don't worry, it's none of your fault ..

Peace !!

I good mood because ..

Firstly went to khatib and meet nunu ..

Follow her go tuition and study ..

To discribe the moment in the tuition ..

BORING !!

Haha ..

Sleepy sia ..

Secondly, i got contact with my adik angkat and my two Close Friends !!

One i ok to talk but the other has no mood ..

Poor her ..

But she didn't say anything about her problem so i ignore ..

Tak baek seh ..

SORRY !!

I got good news for me !!

Shidiq finish a melody for "Her Beauty Remains" ..

Now just to insert the lyrics where i'm working on ..

Haha ..

She saw my ideas seh ..

MALU !!

Haha ..

Now about yesterday night ..

Went to lepak with primary school friends and find ghost ..

Haha ..

We didn't see anything but when we look at the video,

We saw Pocong !!

AHHHHH !!!!

Padahal tak seram ..

HAha ..

The video won't be upload until it's finish editing ..

Seram lah seh ..

Haha ..

As soon as it's done, I'll upload it ..

Tomorrow School ..

So boring but got PE ..

Yay !!

Maybe we're playing floorball ..

Yay Again !!

Favourite sport seh ..

Haha ..

Only like 8 more days to special day ..

Buying for her ***** ..

Opps !!

Haha ..

All i need now i the cash ..

Haha ..

Ok ok ..

I'll post tomorrow ok ..

Till then ..

TATAZ !!

Love you guys out there !! (Not All)

Done By:         

Esfan

Chapter 28: The Darkest Moon

Hello ..

Esfan posting here again ..

Well today had my social studies and my english paper 1 exam ..

The english quite easy but the social studies can die (Why Never Ehk?) ..

Then after school, hang out with my band for a while ..

we talk about the music we're making ..

Just now after i finish my social studies exam, i plan the lyrics for "Her Beauty Remians" (Temp. Title) ..

So hard sia .. 

Until no idea what else to write ..

Haha !!

After hanging out with my band, went to Khatib to meet HER ..

I waited for 30 mins and guess what, there's no sorry from her ..

just great ..

Haha !!

But i don't mind though ..

There should be reasons of why she's late ..

Haha ..

Follow her go somewhere near Kampung Glam there ..

She want to buy for her mum a b'day present so i follow ..

Didn't really talk much though but she disturb me like hell ..

Haha ..

Not that i mind though ..

Didn't sent her back today because she don't want to ..

Why ??

I don't know ..

Not that I mind though ..

Ok i need to find ghost now ..

I put video of my journey ok ?

Till Then 

Tataz !!

Chapter 27: So Tired

Hello ..
Esfan posting here again ..
Today is Sunday ..
And that's only 1 thing ..
Tomorrow school ..
Boring ..
Have exam english and social studies ..
Ala lazy ah ..

Today went to my cousin house at Bukit Batok ..

Well, very tiring seh ..

play PS 2 with my other cousins and most i won ..

haha ..

Well need to go now ..

Tomorrow meeting someone ..

haha ..

NItez !!

And

Tataz !!

Chapter 26: Early In The Morning

from o2o5o9, 7.30am to o3o5o9, 3.04am ..
I still haven't sleep ..
Now i'm writing from my cousin house ..
like over night seh ..
actually just here welcoming my aunt back ..
Just now, i left home around 9+ and went to Changi Airport ..
We reach there around 11+ ..
We took some photos there (sorry can't show yet, can't upload) ..
And we went to Bedok for our supper/dinner ..
i ate twice !!
hungry sia ..

1st, i ate Grilled Chicken Burger ..

But it wasn't enough ..

Haha ..

Then, I ate Hotdog and Mash ..

Yummy !!

Haha ..

Want some ??

To bad ..

Haha ..

And now, i'm still hungry !!

Haha ..

Then, we went to my cousin house ..

On the way there, I fell asleep in the van ..

Haha ..

tired sia ..

But i was woke up by the rain ..

Kacau Ahs !!

Nice nice sleep then the rain disturbed ..

Sebok ah ..

haha ..

Well going home soon and i think later i will post again ..

haha ..

Sleep tight you all ..

NITEZ !!

Chapter 25: Back To Normal?

Hello, 

Esfan posting here again ..

Today very very tired seh ..

just now go and play soccer and later need to go out some more ..

hiyooo !!

i later go to changi airport

because i'll be going to U.S

Haha ..

No lah ..

I'm going there because we're picking up my aunt ..

She's coming back from US ..

Wow !!

What free stuff got ah ??

haha !!

Well i know i'll get my black normal cut converse shoes

and

one pair of black jeans ..

Yay !!

Haha ..

Wah So hungry !!

Later eat what ??

Swensen ?

If eat there, BAEK AH !!

haha

miss my byy ..

And Love her so so much ..

Can't imagine a life without her ..

Ok ok ..

posting tommorrow ..

MAYBE ..

Till Then, TAtaz !!