Chapter 153: The Children Sing

don't take this, don't take this world away from me
don't take this world away from me
don't take this, don't take this world away from me
don't take this, don't take this world away

the future decides the roles we play
the struggles to sell the past away
the after thought is staring back on better days
cause our daughters and sons will live to pay
through every mistake that we have made
through every conviction we've betrayed
so let the children sing

don't take this, don't take this world away from me
don't take this world away from me

yeah
so while we contempt to waste away
the answer that only time could chase
the question we'll ask ourselves from here, to eternity
will it be worth the price to pay
to living the lives of our remains
how do you think we will explain
when the children sing

don't take this, don't take this world away from me
don't take this world away from me

can we find a way
to face today
with the eye on the things to come
cause mistakes we've made
bring on decay
and our chance to make a difference will be gone
oh
yeah

so this is the price to pay (this is the price to pay)
for living in our remains (living in our remains)
just listen as the children sing

on't take this, don't take this world away (away)
don't take this, don't take this world away from me
don't take this world away from me

Chapter 152: MIA

HELLO GUYS !!!! It's been ages seems i've posted anything here ! I really miss typing at my keyboard writing fucking stories about my life . Okay , let's start . Firstly , ITE life has been great at the moment but because of somethings , it hasn't been awesome . Stress because we are given tons of assignments to do and it's like WHAT THE FUCK ! Secondly , i'm sweet~ 17 !! *Fans Screaming*
Happy belated birthday to me ! Thirdly , it has been quite sometime since i've chatted with fee . Really miss her and i'm wondering how she's doing . I know she'll be doing great . *Claps*
Lastly , to my~ BABY !!!!!! I love you so fucking much !!! Thanks for making my birthday the greatest and i really appreciate it a lot ! KISSES AND HUGS TO YOU !!!

P.S: To my friends , thanks for giving me the greatest birthday ever . Sorry for making it a boring day but i wanna tell you guys that i love it a lot !! Can't wait to spend time with you guys !! AV1001A , I LOVE YOU GUYS !!!

Chapter 151: I Need A Wishing Well

Wake up ! The morning is fresh and you guys mustn't spend time in your stinky bed . Drop yourself out of the and begin your day . I slept really well today and later i'm going out to meet a certain someone and go window shopping with her . It's gonna be great and i hope she will enjoy herself later on . Well , i don't really have much to say today so i apologize . Just a quick update , it's only 11 more days .

Chapter 150: Led By The Faith Of Tme

Wow , it has been ages since i wrote something here . Well , not really ages but i guess you guys know what i mean . Life has been great thanks to a certain someone . Everything is back to the way it was but with one little problem . I can't enjoy it that much . Well , nothing last forever so you guys should know where i'm getting to . School ? Well , school is great . I'm hanging out with my new friends , not with the malay freaks who act to be SO MATURED ... But who gives a fuck , i'm happy with the position that i'm in right now . If you guys want to call me anything , just do it , you guys will look like idiots at the end of the day because i don't tolerate to such nonsense . So to bad .

Chapter 149: Normal Day

Wow , what a great day today in school . Well , i'm saying that because i made new friends that used to call me 'sombong' but after talking to them , they say that i'm actually okay . Happy ! Oh yeah , another reason is because today i had a lot of fun in school and there's not much thinking that is needed to be done today . So overall , today is a good day in school . After school , i went home straight with one of my new friend and the rest of my 'go home' friends . And the rest of the day is simply normal .

Chapter 148: Terrified

I'm afraid . I know it's kinda weird to start of my chapter with that phrase after going missing for quite sometime now but i promise you that it has nothing to do with bad stuff but as my eyes could see , this stuff is very terrifying for me . I know that i'm speaking in a twisty way well , the only reason i'm doing this is because i wouldn't like to be straight forward when i'm speaking about my fears . I'm terrified of being missing . I hate it when i wouldn't be able to ... Just skip it . I'm locked inside of my own heart and i'm dying to get out to see the light of freedom once more . I need the past . I hope the girl that is reading this , that has been wondering where i've been , that have been missing me will know that i'm referring to her . I need my past . I will not let it be blown away like the sands of the desert . I'm begging like a poor man wanting money in his pocket to support his love ones . I need what i want . I will not let my fears become phobias . I want my rights . I want ... Just give me another chance . I beg of you . Just one more .

Chapter 147: Singing The Deafening Lullaby

2o1o , it doesn't match . Nothing great happened this year so far . I know , it's too early to complain about this fucking stuff but nowadays , i'm getting angrier and angrier of a lot of things . But what's the fucking point of getting angry ? It won't change a single thing . I can just shut up and sit in one corner complaining about how life is fucking unfair but it won't do any good . Yeah , it's true life is unfair but what the fuck should we do ? Nothing but to be precise , we should just live life the way it is . Just go with the flow as i said . So what if people will say i'm different or anything . I'm not changing , it's just that i'm not being the way people want me to be . So this isn't my fault . I'll live my own life the way i want it because i control my own life . The rest are just guides to help or to tear me . I'm sorry if i've been hiding my feelings but that's the way i am and there's a secret behind my reason .

Chapter 146: Another Mile

Should i greet with a Happy New Year greeting or just start ? I think i'll just start . Well , you guys should know that it's 2o1o and another long year has been laid in front of us . Well , let unwrap this present and see what this year have planned for us . Had my first day of the year in Malaysia and we didn't really did much there . Just went shopping , visit my grand-grand and went to eat dinner with my cousin . I bought ps2 games yesterday also . Let me see , i bought Gundam Seed Destiny and Star Wars Battlefront II . My younger bro on the other hand bought Prince Of Persia: Two Thrones and Prince Of Persia: Warrior Within . It's kinda cool you see . Well , the next time in enter Malaysia , another two games will be in my hands .

Oh by the way , this message is for Jesslyn and Hidayah ; I'm sorry about yesterday night when we chatted . I was really moody yesterday and i needed a slow song to calm my mind . While i was at Malaysia , i was so worried about Hidayah and i started to get moody from then . Sorry .

Chapter 145: Ten

10 , a number which has tons of meaning for me alone . Well , personally , everything in my life surely have the number ten in it . Well , firstly , i was born on 10 of February 1993 and now , i'm currently living at the 10th floor but what makes this number even more special is that i found my one true love on the 10 of September 2009 . Well , is this mere coincidence you may ask but for me , it's just a little fate . When i asked her to be with me , i didn't know that the date was on 10 so it cannot be purposely . But whatever it is , the number 10 will always be a special number to me .

Well , speaking about my girl , i think i should tell more about her . Well , where should i start ? Well , Hidayah is just a perfect girl for me because she is everything a guy would ask for . She's sweet , caring , loving , funny sometimes , understanding , naughty , always noisy , gorgeous and she's understanding . She's my angel and i will not let any guy lay their hands on her . I will treasure every moment with her and put them all as memories . Even if time takes either on of us , our love will still go on . Every kiss and every hug will never be forgotten . My love towards her is just strong . I would be devastated is she would break my heart . But i will forgive her no matter what . She's just an angel to me . I love her so much .

Chapter 144: The Unsolved Puzzle

Well , my title is referring to a game that you need to put pieces together to figure out what the picture really is but for those who knows me very well , you should know that i'm lying . Puzzle is a great thing to represent me for who i am . My life and my personality is a mystery to others , even my parents . I am yet to show who i really am inside which i've been hiding for years . I dare not show it to anyone because i'm not that monster anymore . I've change into a human , a simple boy . It's because of this boy that made people see the happy me . It's because of this boy that makes people think i have a perfect life but do you guys think it's true ? Do i have a perfect life ? I don't think so because the last i check , nothing in life is perfect . The only think that is perfect is a perfect death . I may not show it to the world but i am really suffering inside . Trying to keep my feelings inside of me so that i will not be the beast i used to be . Emotion is a funny thing really . It sometimes show people who they really are but also sometimes , they are just the demon itself . I'm sorry if you guys aren't able to solve the puzzle of me . To tell you the truth , it's nearly impossible to pull it off .