chapter 24: So Confuse

Well, there's no time for hellos ..sorry .. i need to scream out loud ... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok that feels better ..
well not really .. i think so .. hmm ..
i have no idea if it's over or not ..
yesterday, when i chat with her, she told me to decide should our story ends there and of course i said no .. i couldn't even imgine a life without her .. I REALLY LOVE HER !! when i met her yesterday, i can't believe i'm saying this , i cried because she said we need to end it there .. So now you understand why i'm confuse .. when she boarded the bus, i can't afford to turn back and look because i will cry .. maybe i did when i don't look .. i cried because of i girl and that's a first time for me ..
ALL I WANT TO KNOW NOW IS THAT, IS IT OVER OR NOT ???
Please don't be over ..
She's just so sweet, loving and she always makes me smile .. You guys need to understand what she meant to me .. She's like my special someone .. and she's the first and only girl that i can't forget about .. Every kisses, every hugs, every smiles, every laughter and every moment we spent with each other are permenently stuck in me .. I LOVE HER SO MUCH !!! My heart is like beating faster and faster again .. So afraid of losing her .. She is a star that can't be faded away in my life .. l don't want it to be over .. i want it to go on .. i don't see the reason why we need to end it .. I LOVE HER !!!

Chapter 23: Burn The Bridge Is Back

Hello guys ! WOw, i'm so happy today .. hahas .. Well my stress is all gone and i'm back with the old cheerful me .. LIKE WOW ! Well today, i went to Shidiq house because i want to use comp .. just sitting and playing XBox .. Well i'm like now waiting for my girl to call me .. I hope i can see her today because i really miss her .. Aww .. i Like miss her so so much .. Hiyoo .. I can't use comp at home because i'm "grounded" for don't know how long .. my mum says i can't use the comp but i can go out .. LIKE half yay and half aww .. Ok ok ..

A message for my byy :

Byy, if next week want to meet, call me ..

i really want to see you ..

hiyoo ..

miss you so the much ..

Well just call me ok ?

and i hope today i can meet you ..

Till then ..

LOve You ..

Kisses And Hugs ..

And got one more news .. BURN THE BRIDGE IS BACK !! All the past are all settle and we are ready to create another chapter of our story .. Hope nothing like before will ever happen again .. We rock !! By the way, Sorry Guys ..

Chapter 22: I'm So F**king Stress !!

... Here's Esfan posting like again .. What a fucking day i had today ! I was so not in the fucking mood today ! Nothing ever go my way ! Except for one thing .. Around 12+ in the morning, i was sent to the hospital because for some reason .. The doctor says that i'm superrr stress because of a lot of things .. Well i agree .. I'm sooo fucking stress !! With what ?! EVERYTHING !! With this fucking life ! With the fucking school ! With the fucking studies ! ARGHH !!

What hell must i do ?!

Give up ?!

Let life take over me ?!

WHAT ?!

I'm lying in face down position and i can't stand back up .. What in the name of ***** must i do ?! ARGHHHH !! SO SO SO SO SO SO SO FUCKING STRESS !!

Today, i got into a fight with Has ..

He like ...

Nevermind just forget it ..

I threw a fucking chair at him ..

I was SO angry ..

I don't know if he knew that or not ..

But i want to say that i'm truely sorry ..

Anything, let me be cane, not him ..

SOrry ..

Chapter 21: Am I That Guy ?

Hello .. Is like Esfan posting here again .. Well today --- hmm .. I don't know if to put it a good day or not .. What the hell am i saying ?! It's an OK day .. Because, i meet my Byy .. I was soooo late .. and like so stupid of me .. ARGHH !!! SO SORRY ..

Then, we like hang out under a void deck somewhere near Khatib ..

LIKE OK ..

We just like hang out ..

Nothing special .. (I Think So)

Then, I sent her home .. And like we hugged a lot and i kissed her on her forehead .. TWICE !! No she doesn't dissapoint me but i surely has dissapoint her .. I forced her like too much and i'm like sorry .. SO SORRY for not being your "GREAT HUBBY". I'll try to be that guy .. That you always dreamt of .. So SOrry ..

LOVE MY BYY SO SO MUCH !!!

Chapter 20: I Quit !!!

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************************************* You Guys Just Ruins My LIfe*********************
***********Got Nothing Better To Do?!*************************************************
*****************************************************************Just Leave Me Alone!!
****If You Don't Like Me Just Say It .. Don't Need To Irritate Me***************************

I QUIT !!

**************************************Go Find Yourself A Better Vocalist!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*****

****Get The Hell Out Of My LIfe !! *****************************************************

Go and ****! Go and ***!

I maybe TOO FUCKING NICE to you guys !

Just DON'T reach the limit !

Burn The Bridge Is Dead !

Chapter 19: An Uncomfortable Moment

Hi Esfan posting here again .. Can't sleep or rest .. Like what sia .. So weak and so tired .. Haiz .. What to do ? What to do ? Why ? Maybe i'm LIKE just worrying too much .. Maybe there's more ? I have no freaking idea why ..

BUT ..

It all change when my Byy chat with me .. LIKE WOW !! Haha .. But deep inside, i still have that uncomfortable feeling .. It's not that i don't trust her, it is just that i don't trust myself ..

"Am i a good BF ??"

That is the question i've been asking myself everyday, every hour, every minute, every second ..

That's the only question i ask myself ..

Every moment ..

BUT ..

My Byy have told me the answer ..

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She Says ..

I'm Ok ..

LIKE WOW !!

Just love my Byy so very much ..

Chapter 18: Last Minute Plan

Hi there, Esfan posting here again .. Today is Saturday and it's someone special birthday .. LIKE WOW !! By the way, Happy Birthday .. Well Saturday if staying at home feels LIKE so weird .. But luckly, Jesslyn and Wan made a last minute plan .. We went to Vivo City to watch 'Fast & Furious 4'. It was a breath-taking show ..

Also, i bought for my byy her birthday present ..

It's like nothing but i hope you love it ..

It is a ****** ..

I'll show you the picture and i'll give it to you on tuesday, when we meet ..

Today actually is a great day but two people that are special are missing .. Firstly, is Shidiq .. Without him, we are so boring .. And for the first time, it felt weird because there's no one to disturb me .. Hahaha !! And the last person that is missing is my byy .. It LIKE so boring without her by my side today .. But i totally understand why she can't make it .. I hope u enjoy your birthday byy .. I miss her so so so so much .. Haiz ..

Well that's all for today..

I'll continue tomorrow ..

Till then,

TATAZ !!

Chapter 17: Am I TOO Nice ?

Hi Esfan posting here ... AGAIN ..

Well the first half of the day isn't really that great ..

After school, we went jamming and i SUCKS !! (Like Always)

How could i forgot the melody and lyrics ?!

Arghh !!

Then i was disturbed by my band members ..

They say i stole Wan's girl ..

LIKE FUCK SIA !!!

M i TOO NICE until i was easily disturbed ?!

I'm WEAK !

But everything changes when i met Nunu ..

LIKE WOW !!

I waited for her for 16 mins but it was alright ..

My favourite part when i and Nunu went we had our privacy ..

We hugged, n she finally revealed her secret to me ..

i was shocked when i heard it ..

It almost make me into tears but because of her, my anger was gone ..

she's just so brave and strong that she could tell me her secret ..

I'm proud of her ..

i finally did what i wanted to do, kiss her on her forehead ..

We really had a great time there ..

that was the sweetest moment i ever had ..

I handed her the drawing and i hope she like it ..

i really love her ..

Well, that's all for today and i'll continue tommorow ..

Till then ..

TATAZ !!

Chapter 16: It's Not The Day Of My Life

Hi Esfan here posting again ..

Well today is my NAFA ..

And LIKE WHAT sia ..

It's not tiring but so the boring ..

Well, firstly we had our Sit And Reach and i won Wan ..

My score was 45 ..

Next, we had our pull ups and i managed to do 8 times ..

After that, we had our Shutter Run and my timing was 9.5 sec ..

My best ever ..

LIKE WOW !!!

Next, we had our Sit Ups, i managed to do 45 sit ups ..

i actually cn do more but lazy ..

Lastly, we went to do our Standing Broad Jump and i managed to jump 212cm ..

Haha ..

But still get less points ..

Well, today really miss my Byy lots ..

Miss her smile ,

Her giggle ,

Her eyes ,

Her Sweetness

AND ..

Everything about her ..

I just love her so much and hope she feel the same ..

Haha ..

Well, that's all for today ..

Tomorrow will surely be a great and tiring day ..

Just can't wait ..

Till then,

TATAZ !!!

Chapter 15: Am I?

Hi Esfan posting here again .. Well today i'm in a good mood .. And i don't know why .. Haha .. And that's LIKE weird .. Haha .. Well i think maybe it's because of yesterday special day .. Well i can't wait for this Friday .. I have a feeling that it will be one of my greatest day .. Well firstly, i'm gonna meet my band and go jamming with them .. its time to master 'A Favor House Atlantic' !! Can't wait for that .. Haha ..

Well, maybe after jamming, i'm gonna meet my girl .. and i forgot where .. haha .. dear where ah ? Hiyo .. haha .. sorry i suffer from STM ah .. haha ..

Well, i was wondering if anyone could answer any of this question, and i really need it ASAP.

The first question is; "Am i a great friend?" (for all)
Next; "Am i that good bro?" (for my bro)
Next; "Am i that irritating" (for all)
Lastly; "Am i a GOOD boyfriend" (for my byy)

Kk, i'm done for today, i'll maybe continue as soon as possible ..
Till then, TATAZ !!

P.S: I Love You Byy !!! Kisses and Hugs To You !!!